My Only Friend Is My Misery

John Mitchell once said, " Our attitude towards life determines life's attitude towards us." During the course of the past couple of weeks, I've been in a specific mood. The type of mood where you can't stand being told what to do by anyone especially your family. Now I don't know if it's because of my new haircut, I don't know if it's because of my whole new Rebel Without A Cause summer phase, but something about me doesn't seem like the norm. Now, I'll admit that when people start telling me what to do, it does irritate me, I mean I'm almost 20, damn near an adult, I should be able to make my own decisions. Now I do realize however, that my family is probably looking out for me but it's my stubbornness that makes me "lash out" and I guess create a small dispute.  So is my stubbornness and my ego the reason why I can't get a job, the reason why no girl considers me as boyfriend material? Is the Law of Attraction really to be put on the spot light? I can't help but think. Maybe I'm not determined to be a writer, will I be a success? Will my book(s) be a bust? I've had dreams where I'm on TV promoting my stuff but is that enough? Do I have to start living for the future or do I struggle with trying to survive the present? And while I continue to ask these questions, I can't help but think that I still have some unanswered questions that I buried, my past is coming back to haunt me, all over again...

It's Just Textbook Stuff

   Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, "Do not waste yourself in rejection; do not bark against the bad, but chant the beauty of the good." We all love being accepted. No matter where, at what time, or even when, being accepted into some place makes you feel like the king of the hill. Why is it then that the majority of the things we take a chance on get shot down by Acceptance's little sister, Rejection. Rejection can be a real bitch when she wants to be. Whether it's from a job, a college application, or even a relationship. No one likes being rejected, no one likes having that feeling of "I'm not worthy enough." The weird thing is, that rejection will always be a part of our lives. It all depends on how we deal with the rejection that makes us or breaks us. But once again, consider a relationship or not even a relationship, just consider a friend. Friends will always reject you for others, that's just how it is. But does it come to a point, where all of this rejection is enough and you end up calling them out on it. For instance, say you don't talk to a friend for a couple of weeks and then they suddenly call you and don't even say, "hey, how are you?" They immediately go into whatever the hell they called you about. Now, not only does this show that they don't care but it also shows that your nothing but another person to them. In return, you call them out on it, not even leaving them with enough space to come up with something smart to say. So if you think about it, is rejection really all that bad? Or does it give you the chance to open your eyes and your mind to new opportunities?...