Numb, not
of pain or pleasure but from the bullshit that goes through everyday life. Numb
from a society that preys on the innocent and provides for the guilty. Sad for
the lost lives due to violence, both verbal and physical. Distraught by the
lack of help to those thinking in suicidal ways, which ultimately result in a
permanent solution. Anger towards those that ridicule over gender, race, and/or
ethnicity. Confusion over those who decide to do wrong towards their better
halves. Intrigued by those that decide to stay with the one doing the wrong.
Encouraged by the lack of faith provided by a misguiding teacher. Encouraged by
the love and support given to me by a group of strange individuals with similar
characteristics, my family. Impatient towards my future, mainly because I want
to know if I make it or not. Optimistic when it comes to Love but my heart has
been bruised quite a lot. Interested in the peace and tranquility that certain
music provides for us. Amazed by the true beauty that this world has to offer.
Bewildered by the lack of faith that we as human beings share. Fear for those children
born in a wrong home which ends with a rough childhood full of scratches and
purple skin. Agony for those owners of man’s best friend who treat said best
friend like dirt.
If I had it
my way, the world would be peaceful yet I’ve come to realize that peace could
never be an option, at least not for the entire world. It will forever be
filled with nonsense violence and stupid hatred. Innocent people will remain to
be in danger all because a coward or group of cowards decide, why say something
when I can physically show you, by bringing bloodshed. Bullies will always
remain for some damn reason. While in high school, bullying was never a problem
for me, my school didn’t even know of the word. Even though it was only 4 years
ago, the youth of today has drastically changed. Now kids are no longer friends
with everybody, each person sticks to their respective group. Feeding off of
the innocent of others who haven’t done a fucking thing to them. Women are
still being treated like shit by some fucking guy when if memory serves me
correctly, he came from a woman. I guess that’s why I’m so numb because of all
of this ignorance and useless negativity being thrown around. I’m numb because
Life shouldn’t be so hard, sure struggles are a part of life but you’re also
supposed to be able to enjoy it and cherish it. With so much anger and
misunderstanding, that seems like an impossible task for the majority of
humanity. It’s just nonsense, think about it…
